3-30-2023

 Woke up at 6am was feeling good then the things that went wrong before 8am hit.

1. coffee maker basket overfilled f'ing grounds

2. spilled my huge water cup all over the desk

Did have some good stuff happen 

1. my horror blog has 4k views in the last 2 days

2. i was retweeted by a movie festival and a movie production company

so my emotions have run the gamut today from on the verge of a melt down to being on top of the world. i don't think the meds work to good yet. when i see the doctor tomorrow i'll check on it

4:30 I'm cold and tired thinking on taking a nap. 

i wish people would understand that the pain i feel when picking at my skin allows me to take the pain I feel from the world. you cant hurt me when I hurt myself

i am only content when im holding a cat

intrusive thoughts suck

went to bed about 12