Dave's Journey

 woke up at 4am even after taking 3 sleeping pills laid ariund till 6 and made some pancakes.  watched a movie  about alien's  and did a blog post about it. now it's 730 and i'm drinking coffee went out to pick up some meds today started down pouring I got soaked so then I get told i shouldn't put ,y belt in the dryer. not wow thats to bad about you getting soaked. like as jean jacket or anything else with metal won't ruine it.  current mood everything is agitating. 11:00 time to argue on the internet 6pm still super agitated and now the xbox stopped working called alec and got it working again did somw tweeting and went to bed about 1

 Woke up at 6am was feeling good then the things that went wrong before 8am hit. 1. coffee maker basket overfilled f'ing grounds 2. spilled my huge water cup all over the desk Did have some good stuff happen  1. my horror blog has 4k views in the last 2 days 2. i was retweeted by a movie festival and a movie production company so my emotions have run the gamut today from on the verge of a melt down to being on top of the world. i don't think the meds work to good yet. when i see the doctor tomorrow i'll check on it 4:30 I'm cold and tired thinking on taking a nap.  i wish people would understand that the pain i feel when picking at my skin allows me to take the pain I feel from the world. you cant hurt me when I hurt myself i am only content when im holding a cat intrusive thoughts suck went to bed about 12

    It's been a day of highs and lows. My Epic Horror blog received over 2k hits today on a review I wrote on the movie Knock At The Cabin so that was cool. I have also been irritated all day and been having a few crying fits. Other then that I had to force myself to eat. And to make matters worse I'm out of pot so I can't self medicate tonight to get some rest.   I hate taking the sleeping pills I have perscribed. On the other hand it is good to be over the peak of mania. Now we have to wait to see how far down this ride will be. I was pretty constructive today getting some things that needed done. I guess thats all for now. Good night my people talk to you tomorrow.

 Hello,    I'm starting this blog to take you on my journey with bipolar one. I was diagnosed with PTSD in 2008 and Bipolar in 2022. When I was diagnosed a lot of my history had fallen into place extrema mood swings, hyper spending, hyper sexuality, you name a symptom I displayed it. I am a 58 y/o married male with 4 bio kids and 2 step kids(which they all might as well be bio it's the way I think of them). I'm going to use this blog to give daily post on my world. Well I'm going to sign off for now. Thanks for reading.